No you can not murder me!

Dear Random-Facebook-Friend who has started a Poke War with me,

don't get pissed via FB chat when I turn you down for drinks on a Tuesday night. let me list the reasons for you:
1. you poked me before we were ever friends.
2. it's creepy. i have NEVER met you, you could be the next CraigstList murderer (fb style).
3. it was lovely of you to assume i am completely-obligation-free-RIGHT-this-minute. i can see you are very understanding of other peoples time.
4. when i say "lol well I'm gonna have to pass tonight, sorry. I'm actually not drinking for this month... just a fitness goal I want to get to and drinking does nothing to help get me there" i'm ACTUALLY telling the truth.
5. a snarky reply i.e."ohh ok well u couldve said id show up just to conversate and have some juice or water however cool enjoy" is a sure way to get me to NOT ever:
   A. return a Poke
   B. return a chat message or
   C. think of grabbing "drinks" with you ever again.


sincerely,
the over-protective, MB.

ps. I hate the "word" conversate... the word converse is so much more concise.

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For you're viewing pleasure here is my first, only, and entire conversation:
(enjoy!)

Today

Report · 9:11pm

where are u Mary lets have a quick drink instead of a poke 

Report · 9:11pm

lol I'm in Omaha... where are you?

Report · 9:13pm

I jus got into omaha..can u meet me at the parliament for a quick drink

or the myth downtown

just one or two tuesday night drinks will help u sleep better [<------ CREEEEEEEPY!]

Report · 9:17pm

lol well I'm gonna have to pass tonight, sorry. I'm actually not drinking for this month... just a fitness goal I want to get to and drinking does nothing to help get me there

Report · 9:18pm

ohh ok well u couldve said id show up just to conversate and have some juice or water however cool enjoy

 creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Namaste

I have realized I have fallen by the way side of my blogging. Life has taken over and I haven't taken the precious time to reflect. This luxury shall be a daily activity -- whether it is blogging, meditating or simply working out-- it is evident that I need to get back my "Me" time.

With my recent purchase of Beyonce's new album 4; I was left exposed. Exposed in the fact that I am not living with every intention of my mind, body and soul.

To live wholly and simply.
To appreciate the world for the beauties is possesses and find brilliance in its simplicities and complexities alike.
To love without fear.
To let your soul shine.
To be here, present, everyday; organically.
To know that when you die, your soul will be kept intact by the memories shared.

This is me. I am here. I will love.

porch blog #1:

its late. i know this.
don't judge me.

im enjoying the summer's eve.
outside. relaxing.
after a night that could have been SO much more.

lessons learned this Friday evening:
*even when you call a delicious looking man as yours... he still is not yours.
*no matter how hard you try to convince your friends to "let loose"... the decision to "let loose" is still at their discretion.
*a flask will only carry you so far.
*Life is still being lived, every day we exists.
*a PORCH is what was missing from last summer...
* the winds of change never blow in the same direction.

Good night and good luck.

Over due Post: Final Notice

My sincerest apologies for the delay in posts. I have been quite busy since the last word was typed. So here is an agenda for the topics to be discussed today:

1. apartment, update
2. love department
3. career moves
4. higher education
5. love/depression for rain
6. tan lines
7. SPRING is SPRINGING!
8. photo opp
9. jet lagged
... lets begin...

1. Apartment, updated: Today marks the official two month mark for leaving the nest. Still very organized (of course), clean (double of course) and empty fridge syndrome. Yes, a struggling college student can have a very sweet apartment and yet still have a very empty fridge. I do have all the condiments tho-- don't you worry, all name brand as well-- because those taste the best, duh.

Thus far I have killed three (yes, 3) fish. Harold lived 2 days, Hinkley made it just past the 24 hr mark and Lucky Bastard (who didn't turn out to be so lucky) lived a measly 17 hrs. The Fish Store (from whom I purchased all three fish) thinks I'm a crazed Fantail Goldfish killer. Please don't suggest I get a Beta, because not only will you be the um-teenth person to suggest it but it will be the um-teenth time I have told someone I HATE Betas (and no, I don't think they are pretty...)!

2. Love Department: The date with Love Library did land a second date but I stopped returning calls after that. It was a mad scientist I was not mad for. However, a prior intrigue (those may remember the fling around New Years) suddenly flooded my thoughts. He had been out of town for training for the last two months and curiosity struck if might be back. A friendly text turned into a returned friendly call that turned into a few more friendly call/texts, turned an intrigue into a boyfriend. Yesterday was the oh-so-coveted three week point. He has two children and an ex-wife but he is a great father, a respectful man, and a good human being. His judgment is level headed, his way with money is conservative and views of marriage, family and lifestyle match mine. I am being cautious with my heart and honest with my feelings. My fear is not of falling in love but of failing to see it coming (this might be the one occasion I don't appreciate a surprise). But of course this is just the third week of the relationship, we have a lot of "getting to know you" done. (it works best if you sing the "getting to know you"...)

3. Career Moves: I have spoken with a few members of the Lincoln Arts Council. They will be taking my nomination to the May meeting for executive board member. I would be the youngest on the board but that's exactly what they are looking for. I have a lot of what they are looking for and they can give me some good connections/networking opportunities as well. I have really good feelings about this one. :)

4. Higher Education: It is the end of dead week which means finals week is only two days away. I am lucky (?) enough to have my only paper, final exam (essay), and quiz on Monday. YAY, me. AND when finals are done... SUMMER school. You should be jealous...

5. Love & depression for rain: Rain is great but a full seven days of it can make a girl depressed. And that's exactly what happened. The last 48 hrs contained a lot of crying. But the bestest friend in the world made me cupcakes. The world is a much better place with cupcakes- yellow cake with chocolate frosting cupcakes. Its amazing what booze, best friends, cupcakes and perhaps a little sunshine can do.

6. Tan lines: Speaking of sun! Prior to all this damn rain was some very hot-n-sunny days. I have found my weekend spot for tanning over the summer (forget tanning beds, gross). The campus fountains- if its too hot, just take a dip and keep that tan up. The only downer is some major tan lines. Tank tops, bra straps its a mess, but I will cope some how. :)

7. SPRING is SPRINGING: Today is May 1st. weird. Its hard to believe the date, and hard to believe the trees have leaves BUT it is and they do! I'm loving it--

8. Photo Opp: I have sold my official third piece of work. The score: Art Show=2, Noyse=0, Zen's= 1. Time of display's Art Show=3 hrs. Noyse= 3 mo., Zen's= 1 mo.

9. Jet Lagged: Over the last two months I have traveled to Scottsdale AZ as well as the ever-crazy New Orleans LA (we should have just stayed on Bourbon street) and will be making the great voyage with Julia and Jenna to Oshkosh this month. Stay tuned for endless enjoyment that is my life...

Numero Uno

First post, Brace yourself.

Its the first day back to school in 2009. The first day back always seems a little ambiguous perhaps not as much in the winter as in the fall, but nonetheless, still feel this period of reconnection is inevitable. Just getting back in that grove and shaking off the post holiday funk. But you know there is always that awkward run in: Ex lover, Ex friend, Ex roommate, Ex crush from last semester, Ex coworker they are all back too and have a different schedule than last semester when you never saw them or in the case of the crush, saw them every tuesday/thursday. Smile, say hello, ask about the break, don't trip as you walk away.
Cardinal rule: always look hot on the first day of classes. There are just too many people to impress to be sloppy. Even if you ride the bike, its snowing, the wind is blowing 85 mph; they are all excuses!

One great thing about back to school, besides shopping, is normalcy. Glad to be back in the swing of things, and of course get closer to the end.

Now lets discuss the amazing break we have just experienced:

• First art show! A great turn out, amazing food, great drinks, pleanty of drinks, good looking people, doing good things for a good reason.
• No one has sang me "Happy Birthday" yet. That is a great thing!
• My family came to the show, and suprised me on my door step. I had no idea they were coming and it was the best suprise I could have asked for!
• One Megan replaced another. That was pretty cool.
  
• Booked first modeling gig. A fashion runway show for Torrid. Huge confidence booster
• Turned away a boy. Also another huge confidence booster.
  
• Met an amazing man, who may not be long term but makes me feel giddy inside. and that is all I care about right now.
  
• Bought a kick ass vintage bike. a Townie. Its sweet and its the perfect blue.
  
• Also purchased a even more kick ass camera. Nikon D60. You should be jealous. I would be.
  

I'm gonna go strut my shit on campus, in the middle of the mild blizzard that I just noticed, and run into every awkard moment just so I can remind them how Hot I am. (so Hot, snow melts... sorry that was corny)