No you can not murder me!

Dear Random-Facebook-Friend who has started a Poke War with me,

don't get pissed via FB chat when I turn you down for drinks on a Tuesday night. let me list the reasons for you:
1. you poked me before we were ever friends.
2. it's creepy. i have NEVER met you, you could be the next CraigstList murderer (fb style).
3. it was lovely of you to assume i am completely-obligation-free-RIGHT-this-minute. i can see you are very understanding of other peoples time.
4. when i say "lol well I'm gonna have to pass tonight, sorry. I'm actually not drinking for this month... just a fitness goal I want to get to and drinking does nothing to help get me there" i'm ACTUALLY telling the truth.
5. a snarky reply i.e."ohh ok well u couldve said id show up just to conversate and have some juice or water however cool enjoy" is a sure way to get me to NOT ever:
   A. return a Poke
   B. return a chat message or
   C. think of grabbing "drinks" with you ever again.


sincerely,
the over-protective, MB.

ps. I hate the "word" conversate... the word converse is so much more concise.

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For you're viewing pleasure here is my first, only, and entire conversation:
(enjoy!)

Today

Report · 9:11pm

where are u Mary lets have a quick drink instead of a poke 

Report · 9:11pm

lol I'm in Omaha... where are you?

Report · 9:13pm

I jus got into omaha..can u meet me at the parliament for a quick drink

or the myth downtown

just one or two tuesday night drinks will help u sleep better [<------ CREEEEEEEPY!]

Report · 9:17pm

lol well I'm gonna have to pass tonight, sorry. I'm actually not drinking for this month... just a fitness goal I want to get to and drinking does nothing to help get me there

Report · 9:18pm

ohh ok well u couldve said id show up just to conversate and have some juice or water however cool enjoy

 creeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

if only I could pick up a date at the store to match my shoes.

its holiday party season. so you know what that means.... new shoes, new dress and finding a date.

I can handle getting new shoes and a dress (since I truly have none that fit) but I'm pissed-- year after year I STILL have to search for a damn date. And I'm not talking look for a new one... I mean full-on SEARCH! I try different crews, different cities, different ages and... yet... they are all unacceptable for a simple, holiday, party. were talking a 3 hour commitment here.

What is this business?? I can't find a decent date for three hours in a tie and suit jacket how in the hell am I supposed to find one I could live with the rest of my life? EVEN after all the weight loss-- no closer to finding a holiday party date, really!? ... ok.

So do I learn the lesson from last year and go dateless rather than settle for a man with a tie a suit jacket? OR find someone who's free for three hours on dec. 3rd that I can dress up, throw on my arm, smile pretty, pretend we are happy and then drop him off at his mom's house after he's had is fill of free corporate-politically-correct-holiday-dinner?

Lazer focued.

wow.... where to begin. The delay in posts has nothing to do with laziness or forgetfulness, trust.

I have been one BUSY girl. and mighty FOCUSED.

Lets start with the fun stuff... oh wait, it's ALL fun!

(Fuse):

• The website will go live this Sunday.
• Newest client to join: Aso Omaha. Bring the total number of clients to 5.
  
• Roof Top photo shoot was complete last night. (See photo right) ... I know its pretty hot, if I do say so myself.

Weight loss:

• Total lost to date 21lbs!
• Current dress size: 14!!
• I have started getting the "How did you do it?" questions... I laugh and reply-- OLD SCHOOL! Eating right and working out!
• Con's to the whole weight loss thing... yes, there's a couple cons. 1. Fish Oil is making me BREAK OUT like crazy. No Me Gusta! 2. All my clothes are huge and if I do go shopping I know the new duds will be just as big in a few weeks... so I'm doing my best to rock the baggy look...
  

Dating:

• To damn focused to date.
  
• period.
  
• I did go on a date earlier this week... I'm just not feeling it.
  
• In my new smaller-sized-confidence I have been getting more attention from unwanted suitors; I have learned to be a bit more upfront. "Hey, you should let me take you out to lunch sometime..?" .... "Maybe... NOT." LOL... It felt pretty damn good to walk away from that convo.

keep on keepin on!

real life dates are not like movie dates.

I going on record and admitting, I'm a romantic.

I do want love. The love that comes in movies. The whirl-wind, crazy, unpredictable, consuming, can't live without each other love (thank you carrie bradshaw).

but my realistic side kicks in (I recognize it as my mother's voice) and reminds me that, that kind of love is rare and/or completely made up. after all it IS the movies.

then again, my craze capricorn side chimes in and swears I can be the big fish in the big pond- I can have it all, if I just accept that I can achieve it, because I deserve it.
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all these thoughts flood my mind after my lunch date. It wasn't a particularly life changing date. pretty average. mexican food for lunch (i had an enchilada) and a chat in the park.

is it horrible if I already know it will never work? or just incredibly decisive? I'm looking for an extra ordinary love. a love that will inspire those around us. I just don't see the spark big enough to lite that kind of fire.

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*breaking news*
(seriously) just got a text invite to a double date. No- not the kind of invite where you are invited to bring your date and have double date. BOTH couples asked me to join them for dinner on Sunday-- Hello 5th wheel! I declined by saying "I love to play 5th wheel but I have to wash my hair".

Fall is in Order

On my walk here today I notice something.
I must say this is the earliest I have ever noticed.
(Usually my rate of observation on this particular thing is quite late, until blatantly obvious.)

The trees have started their decent into fall.

Funny how trees have a highlighted awareness for the chill in the air just before the turn. They prepare and ready themselves for the brutal winter. But I don't poses such skills.

A young tree, who's frost came early. ouch.

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Life has seemed to be a bit hairly lately. grown-up shit.
I guess I can't ignore them anymore-- time to face the demons.

Over due Post: Final Notice

My sincerest apologies for the delay in posts. I have been quite busy since the last word was typed. So here is an agenda for the topics to be discussed today:

1. apartment, update
2. love department
3. career moves
4. higher education
5. love/depression for rain
6. tan lines
7. SPRING is SPRINGING!
8. photo opp
9. jet lagged
... lets begin...

1. Apartment, updated: Today marks the official two month mark for leaving the nest. Still very organized (of course), clean (double of course) and empty fridge syndrome. Yes, a struggling college student can have a very sweet apartment and yet still have a very empty fridge. I do have all the condiments tho-- don't you worry, all name brand as well-- because those taste the best, duh.

Thus far I have killed three (yes, 3) fish. Harold lived 2 days, Hinkley made it just past the 24 hr mark and Lucky Bastard (who didn't turn out to be so lucky) lived a measly 17 hrs. The Fish Store (from whom I purchased all three fish) thinks I'm a crazed Fantail Goldfish killer. Please don't suggest I get a Beta, because not only will you be the um-teenth person to suggest it but it will be the um-teenth time I have told someone I HATE Betas (and no, I don't think they are pretty...)!

2. Love Department: The date with Love Library did land a second date but I stopped returning calls after that. It was a mad scientist I was not mad for. However, a prior intrigue (those may remember the fling around New Years) suddenly flooded my thoughts. He had been out of town for training for the last two months and curiosity struck if might be back. A friendly text turned into a returned friendly call that turned into a few more friendly call/texts, turned an intrigue into a boyfriend. Yesterday was the oh-so-coveted three week point. He has two children and an ex-wife but he is a great father, a respectful man, and a good human being. His judgment is level headed, his way with money is conservative and views of marriage, family and lifestyle match mine. I am being cautious with my heart and honest with my feelings. My fear is not of falling in love but of failing to see it coming (this might be the one occasion I don't appreciate a surprise). But of course this is just the third week of the relationship, we have a lot of "getting to know you" done. (it works best if you sing the "getting to know you"...)

3. Career Moves: I have spoken with a few members of the Lincoln Arts Council. They will be taking my nomination to the May meeting for executive board member. I would be the youngest on the board but that's exactly what they are looking for. I have a lot of what they are looking for and they can give me some good connections/networking opportunities as well. I have really good feelings about this one. :)

4. Higher Education: It is the end of dead week which means finals week is only two days away. I am lucky (?) enough to have my only paper, final exam (essay), and quiz on Monday. YAY, me. AND when finals are done... SUMMER school. You should be jealous...

5. Love & depression for rain: Rain is great but a full seven days of it can make a girl depressed. And that's exactly what happened. The last 48 hrs contained a lot of crying. But the bestest friend in the world made me cupcakes. The world is a much better place with cupcakes- yellow cake with chocolate frosting cupcakes. Its amazing what booze, best friends, cupcakes and perhaps a little sunshine can do.

6. Tan lines: Speaking of sun! Prior to all this damn rain was some very hot-n-sunny days. I have found my weekend spot for tanning over the summer (forget tanning beds, gross). The campus fountains- if its too hot, just take a dip and keep that tan up. The only downer is some major tan lines. Tank tops, bra straps its a mess, but I will cope some how. :)

7. SPRING is SPRINGING: Today is May 1st. weird. Its hard to believe the date, and hard to believe the trees have leaves BUT it is and they do! I'm loving it--

8. Photo Opp: I have sold my official third piece of work. The score: Art Show=2, Noyse=0, Zen's= 1. Time of display's Art Show=3 hrs. Noyse= 3 mo., Zen's= 1 mo.

9. Jet Lagged: Over the last two months I have traveled to Scottsdale AZ as well as the ever-crazy New Orleans LA (we should have just stayed on Bourbon street) and will be making the great voyage with Julia and Jenna to Oshkosh this month. Stay tuned for endless enjoyment that is my life...

Dinner and a Move.

I had my first official date with Love Library. And no, it wasn't studying or stacking. I met Will on the second floor of the library yesterday. A perfect day for sandals, a tank and of course a cardigan. A walk to the capitol filled with metaphysical banter, a walk back to campus also filled with metaphysical banter, a five minute discussion on where to eat, a free #1 meal from Taco Bell and a dash of hand holding.

AND A MOVE!!!!
I'm moving. This weekend. Downtown. Just letting the neighborhood know in advance to prepare themselves. I cannot wait to decorate, organize and enjoy the fruits of my labor. I will keep you posted as to the journey of finally moving out on myown.