Wednesday, February 08, 2012

Next Wednesday's Plans

Valentines Day is just around the corner-- and this eternally single girl, isn't predictably pissed about it either.

IN FACT, I'm kinda looking forward to it! It started a few years ago, in an attempt to distract myself from studying for the Life Insurance exam, I baked and decorated Vday cupcakes.

I have since made it a tradition. I seem to have found a way for my single-woman-anger to safely escape. Plus I get to eat the delicious and adorable things once I'm done!

Even if I don't "love" my co-workers I can still share my creation (and in a very passive-aggressive/disguised manner dispense the "anger-cakes").

I have also decided that I will once and for all watch the entire french sub-titled movie, appropriately named, Paris. It's been sitting on top of my TV for about six months now...

Maybe take a long shower, paint my nails pink and make a recipe or two found from my latest addiction,

A night in, appreciating ME. :)

oh, I found this and couldn't stop laughing.... so enjoy! 

Friday, January 27, 2012

Things I want to do in Omaha over the next 3 months:

...this is a list that I will be adding to... and then crossing off... it's a "live" document of to-do's and to-done's.

1. Go: ice skating. (I'm assuming it's a little more difficult to ice skate outside in 70+ degrees)
2. Go: to the zoo! The Henry Dorley Zoo!
3. Walk across the pedestrian bridge.
4. Eat: Dundee Dell
5. Celebrate St. Patties day... all over the city. Ton's of great Irish pubs!
6. Eat: Petrows
7. Go: horse back riding -- it's been a loooooong time!
8. GO: to the speak easy @ the Oven
9. Eat: Cali Taco
10. Eat: BrewBurger
11. Eat: Ingredient
12. Eat: Zio's pizza
13. Eat: M's Pub
14. Go: to a hockey game... I've never been.
15. Eat: Pitch
16. Eat: Netties, Fine Mexican Food --> I heard it's a dive... but amazing.
17. Eat: Goodnites

Omaha, Nebraska

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

can't change your life standing still.

therefore I must move.

I found a perfect opportunity to make the change and make that leap toward the life I have always dreamed of.

It has been difficult for my mom to swallow. Her baby girl is moving away. that might be the hardest part of all, letting my mother go...

but I must look forward and keep pushing myself forward or my life will never change.

26. and I feel like I'm officially leaving the nest. of course I've been out of the house for years but not more than an hour drive away. I will be leaving everything and everyone I've ever known for... a dream.

I'm feeling:
insane. daring. brave. scarred. motivated. nervous. excited. unsure. willing to fail. even more willing to succeed. ready for the next chapter.

May 2012 :: South Beach Miami

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

pushed and pulled.

mbp @ age 3
the never ending battle between my left and right brain.
i'm about to turn 26 and am wondering when i will ever know for sure.

at one point i decided to really appreciate how many opportunities were surrounding me.
at one point i felt on top of it all.
at one point i felt overwhelmed.
at one point i stopped thinking and kept going through the motions.

at some point i will wonder where my life went.
choices must be made.
to avoid the wonder and live the fabulous life i know is waiting for me.

it's not about hard work.
that's guaranteed to happen.

it's about being happy.
that's not guaranteed to happen.

The new year brings a sense of self awareness. followed by my birthday, the constant reminder of time moving forward. we have all moved on. from something.

time to move on. pushed and pulled. but at the end of it all.
i will look back and know the moment it all changed. will you?

Friday, December 16, 2011

How 3 minutes changed the next 24 hours.

last night, before bed I washed my face as I normally do. but something happened in that five minute cleanse.  to be completely honest, I had just walked into the bathroom to use the facilities before I went to bed for the evening. but I looked myself in the eye and forced myself to wash my face while I was in there. I mean, I was there, it doesn't take much to clean one's face, and it's good for your skin to breathe. so I reluctantly got the wash cloth out of the closet, the soap from the shower and lathered up.

after the scrub-a-dub-dub, i picked up the bathroom and before i knew it i had picked up my entire apartment. dishes put away (clean and dirty), trash put in the trash can, tabled cleared off, fluffed the pillows on the couch, organized the knick-knacks on my desk, random pairs of shoes put away, dirty clothes in the laundry basket, I even picked out a new playlist to wake up to in the morning. Damian Marley. I had done just about everything but the laundry itself and making my bed.

my mood had gone from "ho-hum, whatever" to "let's do this!" ... just by washing my face. what in the hell had just happened?

I picked up a book and actually read before going to bed instead of lugging the laptop into bed with me and pilfering through netflix for something semi-entertaining to put me to sleep. It wasn't one of those reads where your eyes start closing while reading and forget the story-line mid-way because you've fallen asleep too many times. No, I was hooked! 40 pages. 40 PAGES! I had only been reading for 20 mins.

what was this super sonic moment?

when I woke up my mind felt cluttered, still. today i have organized my finances and figured budgets for projects. projects ranging from decorating my office at work to fixing the broken tail light on my car.

my lunch break was similar. i looked at my apartment and my car with appreciation instead of the feeling that I could "do better". instead of paying more for something that provides the same outcome, just live, save, and enjoy what I have, now.

my car. i can fix the broken pieces, it runs just fine. why not pay it off and enjoy ZERO car payments for awhile.

my apartment. so the building looks a little dated? my space is great! I have plenty of room. i could add a piece here and there and mirror here and a picture there. make a few decorative pillows for the couch. repaint the bedroom. actually use my patio. trust me the list goes on-and-on.

I started to look at my place from a new perspective and started in on a corner that had been stashed with boxes of consumable products i just never knew where to put when I first moved in. I decided I could actually use it! and brought some of the products back with me to the office and the rest in the fridge so i would see it, use it and it would be cold.

I'm not sure where all this came from or why washing my face has turned out to be so productive but I like it! I'm rolling with it. Could be the best face-washing experience of my life!

Thursday, December 08, 2011

let it snow.

a beautiful snowy day. 
i thank god for my overly warm office on day's like this. 

Friday, November 25, 2011

for those who couldn't be with me ...

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